HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL. It's 2010! :-)
LONG WORDY POST AHEAD!! And so.. I spent my first day of 2010 with ELFs. Caught 3D Avatar @ Cine and went home for dinner after that.

Well.. To sum it all up, 2009 kinda sucked. In fact, it sucked a whole lot. However, the first 6~7 months was pretty good for me :) I enjoyed it so so much. Am always looking forward to every tomorrows. Life was totally different from what it is right now.. totally. But obviously.. it would be weird if everything remains unchanged. Humans do change! Right? I'm sure i've changed too. Of course, for the better.. (for the benefit of myself, not others.) 'Cuz one must bear in mind that 'good-begets-good' doesn't exist. Therefore, think for yourself before others. I've learnt it! What about you? If you realised.. i always blog about how much life sucked in the last half year of 2009. On the contrary, that period taught me how to be smarter.. learn and experience new stuff.. expose the true colours of one, two, three, more & more... -I decided to backspace all- If you people actually think that your small little acts revealed nothing, you're totally wrong :-) I know it all.. but i just prefer to keep my mouth shut..

In the last half year of 2009.. how i wish i lived a better life. Not like this current one whereby i hated every single thing, not liking even one. Everything now just sucked so much. People around me are just so 'fake' and disgusting. Yes, i'm like alone for most of the last half year of 2009. I think that's the reason why i think this period sucked. I enjoyed it though at times i feel inferior and even went crazy over this small matter.. like duh, who doesn't wanna have a bunch of good friends whom you can hang out, laugh and joke with?! It's difficult to find a bunch of people whom you can really trust and get together with well for a long long time. In the long-run, bonds in between people become tighter, but imperfections will be discovered. Well.. i kinda envy those people without flaws. No one is flawless? I think there are! But on the other hand.. what about those who are suffering so much more than us...? Is life that unfair to all? Of course.. that's life.

I'm not one who can study a lot. I've a peabrain. I don't do self revisions at home. I don't do homeworks. I don't pay attention in class. I sleep alot in class. I don't know how i came all the way either. Straight F9s for Humans and POA. Never once passed my Sciences. Chinese deterioriated like crazy. All these have been going on for exactly 4 years plus! But.. in 2009, i finally woke up. Not physically, but mentally. Because of my Os. Because i'm worried. Because i want to get good results. Because i want to prove to those damn teachers who once said i'm a confirmed gone case. Because i see my future. And because.. i'm a total sore loser (Quitted being one anyway. Cuz afterall, why anger yourself?!). All the things that people have learnt in Sec1-Sec4, i've to cover it up in less than 1-2months. Time was very very limited.. 13-14 hours of studying a day.. I nearly went bonkers. I felt so darn stressed up! I skipped meals cause eating will waste my study time. I shouted/screamed at home, cried to Mom and Dad how much i hated the period then- like a mad person! NO! I'm not suffering from depression!! Cried over the phone while talking some individuals.. Touched by the people who cared. And for the papers which i think i've done badly, my mood was super down. And so on... Then.. a big relief after Os! It's like you're finally freed! I can feel it!

Love life in 2009 was terrible. Shall cut short.. i don't know why all the guys i met end up treating me like that.. for no reason. Same treatment from all okay!!! I don't know why the hell.......

5/2' 09 was awesome. Totally! Love that bunch of crazy guys who jokes, never fail to make us laugh and brings joy to the class. Countless teachers cried because of our mischievous acts.. but we've learnt our lessons, haven't we? :-) Aww.. i'm already missing all of you!

I've a few plans for the upcoming year ;) Gonna do it. Plus, i want to lead a new life and put the past behind. Yes, i'm gonna brainwash every. single. thing. I hate the damn way you mother fucking people are treating me as. I feel like immigrating man! I'm all prepared to go over to elsewhere. Here, there's nothing for me to keep anyway. See the hatred towards my current life? Hell, even more than you expected!!!

I better stop typing before it gets longer. Have a happy year ahead all! Xoxo :-)