Not the same anymore.

Went to school with a veryvery bad mood. Get off dad's car, meet kim. Asked Eng cher bout smthng.. Mood got worse ... then met Sher @ canteen, settled down. starting crying, like someone died. I don't knw fr what also. Ha-ha. But definately not an attention seeker... Or whatever you call me k . Hm. Lessons were alright. Play during P.E, slpt during english. Do work during maths, chat during poa & chi. Chi CA1 today. Totally flunk. I gave up fr comprehension. Blank fr 2nd page.. Yeh. Pekchek.

After schl, went off w Kim, jc, jw, david, joseph, ruting & sokhwee. Sh went home, then the rest of us went to ChongBoon Market to eat. Shared w Kim. Went home aft lunch. Bathed & prepared fr tution. Waitd fr the damn bus fr like... MORE THAN 40MINS. & The bus is squeezy like wtfuck. People all pushing me. Almost cnt get up. Veryvery dulan. Dulan till wna cry. Lol !! Siao right. K, then. Late fr 30mins fr tution. Chem lessons tday. What i cn say is ... very difficult ... very pekchek... Feel like giving up. But everytime when i wna give up my studies, i'll think abt Olvls ._. Very scared know ... Aft tution, dad came to fetch me. Cried terribly again. Told him tht i'm very tired, stuff & all. Yes, then he comforted me. :) Reachd home. And here i am.. blogging.

Rants ... rants ...
You don't have to read those actlly :)

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Sometimes i really wonder whats life.
I'm tired. I cnt take this anymore. Gg to collapse soon.
Two words : Life sucks.
Still, i'm lucky to have family&friends arnd me..
I don't wanna live in the past ..
I feel terrible. Nah, you wldnt knw hw i'm feeling right now.
Seems like i've typed lotsa bullshits, trying to act one dno what ..
But, i'm really tired know. I wna move on, but i cnt.
I knw smday i'll let it go. Duh, god knows when ...
Its easier to say than to do. I don't know what am i to you.
I told myself to not bother bout you alr, not to care alr.
Yah. Nt that i want, but i cnt cntrol myself ..
Sometimes i hate myself fr loving you so much.
Saw smthng jus now.. Am i jealous, or sad? I don't knw.
The change one can make overtime is unexpectedly horrifying.
You seemed like a total stranger to me .. You changed ..
You're no longer the one i knew anymore .
Why must i cling onto something hopeless.
Was it all that easy to just put aside your feelings ?
Difficult to fall in love, is that what you said ?
Ha-ha. Are you kidding me .. ?
Guess, you're going to fall in love very soon ?
Maybe i'm overreacting or maybe i'm not.
A cut too deep .. Feeling terribly terrible ...
Knw you wldn't read this, but even if you did, you wldnt care ..
Shall end here abruptly cuz i'm lost fr words ........
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I sound like someone who is v pathetic.
Sorry lor. I'm that pathetic one .
But i don't need anyone's sympathy ..
Anw. I realise my temper/attitude is getting bad-er each day..
When i'm pekchek/dulan, i cry. I angry, i cry. Sad, cry.
Am i going crazy or what .. But at least,
I don't slit wrist, cut hand cut leg, jump floor or whatsoever.
Hahahah- so- lame can . I cry only what ...


Tags replies :D
HUIMIN♥ : Heheh, luv you too! Cheerup k:D:D
wankin : give you chance? kneel down, i'll consider lor ...
HAHAHA. Fuck off lah. Want act as people then say lah. LOL.
Germaine. : Hi lao!!!!!! Hehehe. Yes imy fool. :)
Shirley : hahah!! thankyou :p yehyeh, you too!
Passerby : Its Sleepless Nights by Faber Drive :D
lynette : heheh. boring one lor! yah, i very emo... :( hah!
jc : hahaha stupid Jc go & die lah !! i will study hard! :D