I hate myself fr making this decision.
I cant help but cry, cry,cry .
What am i suppose to do now ?

Hello. fret not. i'm bloody happy now .
jumping arnd the house, shouting, screaming, playing.

Psp-ed the whole day. ok almost the whole day in schl.
shall go do some maths revision now, bye.

Can you still remember the times we had together ? The feeling was so strong.. Remember what youve said to me before ? You told me that you want me to be in your arms forever. You said you wna treat me well. You said you love me, me & me only. Is love like that ? You lied. You lied .. Fuck. I hate it . Everywhr i go, i see images of us. Everywhr i go, reminds me of the lil things we do tgther. Right now, looks like i'm the only one who is suffering. And you ? Definately not. You're bloody happy. Right ? I thought things will turn btr through some communications. I tried so hard, but its useless .. ive failed. Everyday waiting for something impossible to happen. Holding onto some hopes. How naive can i be ? -Yes, still, right now, still . How i wish ive never said that on that day. How i wish i cld fucking take all those words back. How i wish i can have you back by my side. Can anyone tell me how to make it possible ? I wanna be in your arms once again. Once more, & i swear i'm never gnna let you go. But i knw, this day will never come. Never. . anymore. I promised , i swore, i kept swearing not to let you go the first time i lost you- I got you back, but why did i let you go so easily the scond time ? Why ? Its nvr coming back .. Why didnt i treasure you ? Stella you suck. Fuck yourself whore. Now, shutthefuckup Stella Ang..
Do i sound like a pathetic freak to you people who are reading this ? Haha, i think i am one.

idk what words to use to express how much i miss & love you.
im stupid & stubborn, i know. Dont reprimand me..
(i can see,you're way tooo happy..)

/Edited.
heavy flu since 3pm. & its 10.54 now.
cry > blocknose > flu
shall sleep already.