quicky update for today. ahah i came back eventually. blogging's like part of my life alrdy. for almost 7 yrs of blogging !! so anyway, schl as usual. lessons were packed. talk by principle after schl. remedial lessons aft that and all. came home in the evening. studied a lil only. not much today .. sighs. life's gonna be tough fr me during this period of time. :-( i've eliminated ALL the distractions in my life. restrained myself frm using the computer very much alrdy unlike in the past whereby i use the comp for over 5 hours during weekdays. staying at home nt gng out, no tv less phones blabla. am using every second of my life worthily. ahahah am pushing myself real hard this time round. really .. tsk.

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afterall, thoughts will be thoughts.

and so, i studied from 11 in the morning till now it's 10.41pm (with breaks in btwn of cuz). duration might seem long but it's like.. v few stuff went into my head only :-( sighs.. ss and math mock exam tmrw. i learnt about it only today -.- n i'm gonna screw tmrw's ss paper bcuz i think i studied the whole lot wrong topic. whole world's studying another. arghhhh fk. okay. desktop spoilt for like a week plus already. heaven's will i think ahah. will be on hiatus for a month. mugging v hard. one month one month. time's limited !! i'll make full use! goodbye blog. till then :-) but who knows. i might update heheh .

x set everything aside

x concentrate on studies

x good grade fr Os

x ENJOY LIFE AFTER THAT!!! ^^

i MUST say.. singaporeans' kiasu-ness degree is to the maximum. well, it's my first time going to the library at such an early timing. library opens at 11 n guess what ? at 10.40, i see a crowd outside the entrance preparing for war. n when the doors open at 11, people run in like mad cows to book their seats. mmm.. am i one of them? k anyway.. productive study sessions w olivia till 4+. spent a bomb on lunch at hk cafe. i cn't afford to spend anymore :'(

my throat's like swollen, tongue + lips = ulcers. cough's gonna find me soon. i feel so heaty !! major breakout's pissing me off. signs of stressness. yes definitely. see, i'm racing against time. 29 more days to Os know! i'm very very very x100 worried + scared. i've a rly bad instinct that i'll fail my Os .. plus i feel like crying whenever i think of it .. sighs. stomach's giving me problems again .. god. it's 2:11 now and i'm still awake. i need to wake @ 8+ tmrw !! CIAOZ

smth's wrong with my damn internet right now. cn't seem to connect to other sites. luckily i left this page on. wahaha. sushi + salad + yogurt + bread for lunch and dinner. nap for awhile n study frm evening all the way till night. but lappy's with me thrfore play> work> play> work> play x100 .. ahm. it's getting late now i need some sleep. waking early tmrw to go out to study study and study. goodnight. leave me a comment! :-)

i feel like tearing you into pieces. i'm gonna curse you. fuck

but on a second thought.. no bcuz i believe in karma. so how ?!

the moment i saw my L1B4 grade, my heart sank deep .. it almost died.

yes sad. yes angry. sad + angry to the max. fml a big time. am troubled like nuts.

my stomach gave me problms today. i cn't seem to get rid of all those acid in my stomach.

'cept fr that period of time when pills given by doc were with me. guess i've to rely on those in the future ahah.

remedials from 2 to 5. wasn't beneficial at all .. -.-

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(via eletheowl)

school's sucha bore. left eye was sore in the morning. red eyes, tears arnd pupil. but got well eventually. hmm, in a month's time from now- olvls. i'm like totally not prepared -.- how am i suppose to catch up with work ?! have not gotten over my prelim results btw. total failure .. yikes. time fr bed. goodnight.

Happy birthday to Olivia and Matthew Lee! :)

school as usual. all i can say is .. i'm terribly disappointed in my results. really .. sighs

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it was just me, not you .

i feel so stupid.

i threw my cordless phone away while eating mac ystd morning.

it's fking funny n i only realise it during the night

ahahha schl tmrw sian haaaaai life sucks you know :-(

i wonder why do i have sucha fuckedup life. fucking fucked up

i fucking stayed at home for the whole of today

and i'm going to do so for the rest of my fucking life excluding schl days

i seriously hate everything single thing in this fucked up life

i envy people with fun n enjoyable life. mine's like shit

fuckedup life fuckedup studies fuckedup every single thing

fucking makes me wanna fucking cry

i'm willing to let everything in this fucked up life go fr a new one

i'm terribly sorry fr the fucks. i couldn't help it. FML

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i've been sneezing like fr the past 13-15 hrs .. -.- chop my nose.

okay so, i thought i 'll b gg to the flea titans tday.

whole night whole day so excited bout it .

but last minute cancelled fuck

so i stayed at home fr the whole day

computer spoilt + nothing to do

so basically i just rot + rot and rot infront of the tv like shit

n finally sis sleeping i cn use my laptop k bye.

oh btw, I LOVE LADY GAGA !!!! FTW GAGA HAHA

I'm watching VMA '09 which was held @ NY on MTV Asia now.

The speech by Janet Jackson is hell touching that i almost teared.

She, along with some of the top dancers and choreographers in the world paid tribute to MJ.

AWESOME. and i LOVE lady gaga. she's so damn great !!!!!

And boo to kayne west. he dissed taylor swift and left her speechless there . ugh

omg. for the next 2 hrs ... AFK !!!!!

Didn't attend school ystd because i wasn't feeling well. So, went back today and got my prelim papers. Glad that i've managed to pass my English P2. However, am fucking disappointed with my Math result. I DID expect a lousy score but definitely not to THIS frigging extent. It's way too ... ... horrible/bad/sucky/fkedup. I was shocked. It's like 80-90% of the class failed .. BADLY. How can that be ?! Whatever, just accept it loser. Not disclosing my other scores because they're like all the shits in the world added up together. From those, it's a definite 'yes' to getting a grade of >30 for L1B4. So, say goodbye to Os .. I'm really sad.

I iteratively said that i wanna study and do well for exams ... Appparently, no actions were taken. I wanted to much to study. But i'm lazy x1000 + i have a bad memory. Fuck. I wonder how much can a brain take. Why on earth are there professors ?! Their brains must be humongous. I think mine's like the size of a pea. (pea brain) ........ lost of words. i can't continue.

Oh well .. dinner @ J8's Din Tai Fung w family later on. Celebrating sis's birthday. :) Happy belated dearest HX. (17th Sep) You might be the bitchiest or sluttiest sister i've ever met but i still love you know :)

Argh. my stomach hurts a big time ... Barely had a meal today. Biscuits + bread till now. Okay, time to catch the show -Breaking the Magician's code on Chnl AXN. heh. Goodbye.

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" Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness. Appreciating the memories and learning from the pain and realizing that people always change. "

(via eletheowl)

Happy Birthday to JC! May you grow taller, look smarter n excel in your lousy studies. :) Hahah. Needless to say, today's POA paper was crap + dogshit. Well .. at least i tried. Gave JC a surprised bday cele after paper tgther w my ol' clique. It's been quite some time since we went out and i still love you guys that much. :) Jack's place after cele. Chatted all the way till late evening. Was really enjoyable. After that, took our time to stroll back to HUB and went home.

Like finally, prelims are ending. Last paper for tomorrow- POA. Guess i'm gonna fail badly. I nv intend to study. I don't feel like it. I have no mood for it. So, shall see a F9 for POA then. Came home and took nap till late evening.

And so, trip to town w Kim yesterday. Cathay> PS> Wisma> Taka> Fareast. Our legs almost broke! Ahah. Bought nothing much tho.. i want more money $_$. Ugh, ulcer on my lips !! Pain like .... Anyway, this one week holiday is like _l_ x1000. Chinese P1 tomorrow. Best of luck to me and to everyone. Goodnight :)

Am experiencing a real bad headache now. Feels like i'm going to fall sick again .. Ughh. Anyway, spent the whole of my day at home reading CozyCot forums. Hahah. have nothing better to do explains so . 3 more days to school. Don't even know what paper i'll be taking then -.- ...

Know what i've been doing these few days ? Computer computer computer and more computer. Life's sucha bitch. Am wasting my time here doing NOTHING. BORED X1000000 PLEASE SAVE ME !!!!!! I SAID PLEASE.

Now, tell me where were you when i needed you most?
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2nd day at home.
It's 2:42 am now and i'm not sleeping yet ...

Just read my old blog's archives. Way back to when i was Secondary One. Ahah. I think i'm darn lame -.- lol .. I blog about the littlest things! Mmm .. kinda miss how life was back then. Anyway, didn't study ystd. Wasn't in a good mood. So yeah .. But managed to recall abit of history stuff because i memorized quite alot during the Midyrs. And I totally screwed Phy & Chem's MCQ paper ...

And yay, holidays next week! Not really a good thing though. Because after holidays, i only have 2 more weeks to prepare fr Os. -.- Might be banning myself from using the comp. Ahah. Sounds more like a joke. Sigh. Right now i just need a real good sleep ......... i think it's gonna be forever ...


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OMG I JUST REALISED THAT ALL ALONG THE THOUGHT OF '3 MORE WEEKS TO OLVLS ' THING WASN'T TRUE BECAUSE I MADE WRONG CALCULATIONS. W T F I'M SUCHA DUMB ASS. MADE ME SO WORRIED !! K so it's like seven more weeks. Chillllllll woooo. I still mentioned bout this in my previous post: '52 more days to Os which means, less than a month's time!' -.- ........ Omg. I'm a fucking retard who can't do calculations. LOL @ me.

Another day has gone.

Not even mentally and/or physically prepared for Os .. I realise that time is running out. 52 more days to Os which means, less than a month's time! Die.. Today's Math P2 was crap. 2 hrs and 30 minutes to complete it. Insufficient time.. again. Left many blanks. Needless to say.. Math Prelim is a gone case. Sigh. Utter disappointment.

Am feeling very very unwell. Not that i'm sick, but .. i'm just unhappy ....

People do change.

Managed to finish my Chinese paper 10minutes before time's up. But what's the point of putting in so much effort ? Do i need anymore gauges for my Chinese Os when i know exactly where i stand and what kind of score i'll be getting for my retest ? :'( x100000.

Subway for lunch after paper. Caught Turning Point with Sher at Hub. Went home after that. Ugh. Needa study for Math later on. Am. so. bloody. hell. lz. Hopefully tommorw's paper will turn out to be a blessing for me ;)

10 more minutes to start my misery- study .. Anyway. Monday's Physics paper was a relief .. i supposed? Nv expected i cld do that much. Still, doubt i'll pass because i think thr were lotsa errors. Tchers' day cele after that. Damn bored. Hm. Math paper tmrw and guess what ? I spent my whole day using computer. Kill me please. -.- Sigh. I think i spent a total of more than $100 on online shopping. Am burning my pocket with a humongous hole .. Sigh. A sudden instict tells me that i'll not make it for my prelims. Don't even think about Os! Sigh x100. Bye.

Edit. Oh oh it's chinese not math tmrw hahahah ;)
Editedit. Forget to mention about watching movie w my 2 girls after celebration. We rushed all the way from Amk to Tpy in 15 minutes time just to catch Orphan. Long wanted to watch this! Were panting like crazy then. And, movie was great! Not that scary if you're immune to gruesome or bloody scenes. Yup, gogo catch it! :)